So I am now no longer in between realities, as I often thought about the anticipation of the cultural dissonance that shows up when we are coming home from another part of the world full of memories, stories, and emotion. I wasnt wanting the anticipation, but it is certaintly a feeling I am familiar with experiencing, although each time is a little different. Coming home is like its own passage into the unknown because Ive left behind my footprints and remnants of me in Egypt, now fully stepping into unknown territory as, "Savanna, who has been changed by yet another beautiful experience and peoples, now stepping into something new." It is absolutely true that when we have experiences in other cultures and places unlike our own, it allows us to stretch our minds of what is truly possible. It allows us to see things about ourselves that we did not know was there for healing, for expressing more love and joy into the world. It allows us to be humble and grateful for what we have at home and also for those that mirrored to us our humanness there, for we all want the same things. So being in the middle of realities, trying to find the place to integrate the two realities, well, can be the interesting piece. How I choose to show up and express myself now in my own country is the part that takes adjusting, as within me I feel I have been through something that I hold deep inside my heart, something somewhat unexplainable and unique. To articulate its magic to others is maybe not the point or the task, rather, to simply show up as the radiance and joy that I am, in addition to that unique experience that lives within me. We are a collective of memory, experiences, emotions, and attitudes. I am challenged now to see no separation between there and here, but just a flow of energy from across this beautiful planet to this country, where that magic can continue to be expressed. Egypt is truly full of magic and ancient wisdom.
As we become more aware and involved with peoples all over the world, it allows for us to work together, to see our similarities and strengths as One people. It allows us to see the contrasts yes, but to ultimately choose peace..to choose to participate in protecting and nourishing our planet....to choose love rather than fear.
For 2 days as I have been at home in the US, I have struggled emotionally with putting pieces together of what I just experienced. It is the peeling of the layers, every time, of who am I now? Every experience abroad has given me this opportunity to say to myself,"Ok...now with this experience and this magic, you know you are a changed person. Who are you now? And how do you want to express your gifts to the world?" The joys of growing....never stops. As I go day by day, working through the jetlag and processing of emotion and such, I trust that the gifts I received away will work themselves into my daily life here, giving me such a rich and profound wisdom inside to share with others, en sha' allah.
Blessed Be. Love, Me.